Prov 25:2 It is the glory of God to conceal a thing: but the honour of kings is to search out a matter.
My favourite conversations are about Jesus and what Jesus has done and all the wonderful things He continues to do in my life and others. Nothing gets me more fired up than testimonies and it is what sparked this blog, to glorify Jesus, and in the hopes others may learn from my experiences.
I have been saved since small, and the years have taught me many things. Satan has had it in for me since I was tiny, so I have learnt a lot along the way. I have strong knowledge on spiritual warfare, so it comes to the point where someone asks me something and I am able to answer them right away.
Good? Well….maybe not always.
It was nearing the end of 2011 and I was feeling frustrated as I felt that I wasn’t moving or growing with the Lord all of a sudden. I wanted to do greater things, more things to bring glory to His name. But I felt ‘stuck’. So this had been bugging me for a while and I had prayed numerous times about it.
The one night I had the weirdest dream. I dreamt I was visiting my cousin, who is also saved. I was standing in his bedroom and suddenly noticed a poster positioned on the bottom of the wall. I have no idea why the poster was placed on the bottom of the wall and not at the top like posters usually are.
The poster was of Jesus. It was the picture of Jesus on the day of His crucifixion – I could only see from His bare chest up and He was wearing His crown of thorns drinking a 500ml bottle of Coca Cola. The caption read “Ladies! Why else do you think they call Him ‘Holy Holy Holy’?” (Rev 4:8)
My cousin then walked in looking as surprised as me about the poster. I could see he had not seen it before. We wanted to giggle at the funny caption but then kind of got angry at the blasphemy of it.
Interesting advert for Coca Cola, right!
I then woke up and I thought, “Lord? What on earth are You trying to tell me?”
Was the dream for both of us? I don’t know.
But I had asked one of my sister’s friends who has the blessed spiritual gift of prophecy if she might have an interpretation and this is what she said regarding my cousin who had backslid for many years and rededicated his life to the Lord:
“Jesus has been boxed into commercial Jesus, and the true meaning of who He is has been missed. His blood sanctifies us and makes us whole and speaks of covenant (Eph 1:7). That is reflected in the Coke and shows a lack of belief that he has been made whole. The bedroom is significant because that is probably where he spends his time alone with the Lord and speaks of intimacy.”
When I approached my cousin about this he agreed that this interpretation was true.
However, I wasn’t at peace. This dream had to mean something to me too, or else why would the slogan have read “Ladies”?
It took me three weeks of prayer for an answer.
Before reading and studying my Bible I like to pray that God helps me understand what I’m reading and to bless me with wisdom as He wills (James 1:5)
I had turned to the Book of Ephesians and started reading; the Lord had led me there because revelation hit me like a tidal wave. Watchman Nee has stated that spiritual truth comes to us in much the same way a flashbulb would light a darkened room.
I was writing down notes so fast and going “oh my word, oh my word!” afraid I wouldn’t get everything down that was revealed to me.
Ephesians 1:15-23 “Therefore I also, after I heard of your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for all the saints, do not cease to give thanks for you, making mention of you in my prayers: that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him, the eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the exceeding greatness of His power toward us who believe, according to the working of His mighty power which He worked in Christ when He raised Him from the dead and seated Him at His right hand in the heavenly places, far above all principality and power and might and dominion, and every name that is named, not only in this age but also in that which is to come.
And He put all things under His feet, and gave Him to be head over all things to the church, which is His body, the fullness of Him who fills all in all.
Eph 2:5-6 “even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), and raised us up together, and made us sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus…for by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast. For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.”
This is what God laid on my heart about the dream:
God has confirmed, as above, that we are created in Christ for good works, and that He wants us to know what our calling is.
However, looking back at myself, I realise when someone asks me for biblical advice I am all too happy to help and I spew out answers immediately “just because I know the answer.” In essence I was treating Jesus and the Word like a textbook, like something commercial, just to refer back to. Obviously we need to give answers based on scripture, but I think because I am always excited to give an answer and help and teach, I don’t stop to pray about it first. Some instances don’t need an immediate answer, but prayer and waiting on the Lord instead. In hindsight, I sometimes did not check in with God first on what He wanted me to tell this person and receive His direction, but I relied on my own understanding (Prov 3:5). After all, I don’t have the answers, only God does, and He is the source of all wisdom and knowledge.
So at the point I felt I had my head up against a wall, going nowhere and not doing more. The reason for that is I was trying to find more of my calling for God in my own way and time, without leaning on Him for guidance. I’m a bit of a control freak and I guess that spilled over into my spiritual life! I was running, but He waiting for me to catch up in the other direction.
Looking further on in Ephesians God gently showed me that the same power that He used to raise up His precious Son is the same power that works within us! He raised us up together with Christ, and we all sit together in the heavenly places.
So, He has given me the power, as a gift. And in due time He will lead me to what He needs me to do; but I can’t lead myself there or do this on my own. He said, “You have the power because of My Son, but if you go this alone, I’m not coming with you!” Yikes! Then this was confirmed when I turned to Ephesians 2:5-6 and it says that we can’t go around doing things ourselves and then being able to brag about it. If you go it alone without God’s guidance and instruction, you are doing it in your own strength and you will ultimately glorify yourself.
God knows the plans He has for me, and us, (Jer 29:11) but we just need to learn to give up the control mechanisms and submit to His perfect will and reigning authority! Or we go alone. So every time I see the control coming, I remember Jesus taking a sip of Coke 😉